Naked with Black Socks

It was last Monday                         It’s always last Monday

and there I was just standing there

Fully exposed

with just the last bit of remaining evidence

showing where I’d been

Some might say I’ve been to hell and back

but who knew they dressed so fashionably there

 

Gone Forever but I May be Back Tomorrow

Gone Forever but I May be Back Tomorrow”

That’s what her note said. She handed it to me with this worried smile as she turned to board the train. She taped this old picture to it with a crusty piece of tape, it said “Do you know what’s wrong with this picture? There’s two footprints in the sand and both are mine.”

I suppose that she wrote that thinking it would crush me and I’d run back to her begging for another chance but the only thing I can focus on is this piece of tape. She never did like to throw away anything and by the looks of it it’s been used a few times. I’m surprised it held that old picture to the note. She was always funny like that though, she never could fully let go of anything.

The Night Doesn’t Exist

The night doesn’t exist

I learned that the night I learned how to die

It was the same night I stopped erasing my mistakes

I didn’t see a point in it anymore, although I don’t see much of anything now

I tried cursing in the face of God

I yelled until I realized no one was there.

Telegrams

My existence is offensive

and my language is expansive

It’s expensive these words that sprout of of my mouth

You can’t tell me death isn’t what all of this is about

You can’t tell me how this isn’t my fault

So here I’l start by tearing through every lie I tell myself

it happened again last night

I carved Stop Doing Bad Things into my skin

You’d think I’d get the message by now

The Night Doesn’t Exist

The night doesn’t exist

I learned that the night I learned how to die

It was the same night I stoped erasing my mistakes

I didn’t see a point in it anymore, although I don’t see much of anything now

I tried cursing in the face of God,

I yelled until I realized no one was there

Raw

When you kissed me it felt like it lasted an eternity and only a second at the same time.

I had wanted to do it for so long that it felt like that was exactly where I was meant to be

I didn’t want that moment to end

A Letter to You

I was going to write you a letter

but I’m not good with words so I’ll write you this instead

You don’t know that my mum said you make me happy

she said anybody could tell by the way I talk about you constantly

she said it’s been a long time since she seen me smile last

so I should do everything I can to not mess this up

this thing we have

You don’t know that I liked your mum calling me son-in-law

I liked how she told us that we had something special

she said you and I had a special understanding of each other

that’s what therapy does though

You don’t know that I had a crush on you for the longest time

but I was too scared to tell you about it

and when you said you liked me I couldn’t believe it

You don’t know that it scared me, the way I felt about you

You don’t know that when you said that when you like someone they have to have a nice ass

and when you said you like me I was thinking ‘does that mean you think I have a nice ass’

I’m sorry I got so excited

You don’t know that it took 4 hours just to get up the courage to hold your hand

or that it scared me when you tried to hold mine, I still think that was adorable by the way

You don’t know that I was being serious when I said that if you proposed to me with a cat

I would have married you right then and there

husky puppies are also a suitable alternative

You don’t know that I wrote you this

or that I’ll probably never show you it

p.s. I think it was kinda funny how my mum called you my better half

and her little stories of us as a married couple were/are amazing

and yes I will bake you a pie if you want one

you’re too cute to say no to

~Japser