Broken Clock

I’m like a broken clock

You can tell exactly when I stoped living

They say it isn’t always that easy to tell

but if you listen closely you can hear a lack breathing

I’m struggling to move my rusted joints

with every step my bones break with the pressure to continue on

Why is it so hard to move

I use to be able to do it effortlessly

All I ever wanted was to be alive

Why does my struggle have to mean I never tried to you

Can’t you see the pain I’m trying not to lose to

It doesn’t want to see me succeed

Depression throws me in head deep and anxiety keeps count

I’m drowning but your waiting to save me to see if there’s a heartbeat

Sometimes it feels like I’m dead and alive at the same time

It gives me false hope

When I look in the mirror I don’t see a real person

I only see the hollow shell you with robbed for spare parts

saying you don’t need this heart, don’t be so selfish

I’ll bring it back when it doesn’t work for me anymore

Lungs that I don’t need anymore, you took them yesterday

Now I can’t scream for help

Are you proud of me now

Am I everything you hoped for

If I gave everything I have left to you

Would you finally see that I’m broken

Or would you insist that you never saw the early warning signs

I’m sorry I didn’t make it more obvious that I was missing body parts

I’m sorry that I’m just a broken clock that can no longer tell time

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